Laughing, talking, enjoying each other,
Not realizing I had found a new lover,
Offering smoothly to walk me home,
Agreeing, without realizing we were alone.
As we trudged down a path familiar,
I had a feeling very peculiar.
I realized I did not truly like your person,
My heart was not exactly bursting.
I did not like the you in front of me
But only the you I wished you could be.
As you casually gesture and ask to enter,
I am taken back for a moment, then centered.
I consent and we enter together
I have let the beast take my feather.
All of this is a heavy reminder the morning after
Of the boy who I truly loved and who could see
Yet that was long ago, a different time, a different me.
Long ago I lost the cleanliness of my rags.