A Mother’s Love

To my mother who was told that at 22 the last thing she needed was a baby.

To my mother who did not get an abortion when asked.

To my mother who has never been unkind to my Dad’s mother.

To my mother who called me even when I hit ignore on all her calls,

To my mother who had a baby at 22 and has never said it was a mistake.

To my mother who decided her call in life is to be just that.

To my mother who never gave up on me.

To my mother who called every day when I moved out on my own,

To my mother who listened to me cry tears of loneliness over the phone,

To my mother for believing in me when I most needed you,

To my mother who worries about me when I am sick or traveling

To my mother who still listens to the CD I made her in Christmas 2012.

To my beautiful mother who doesn’t always believe me when I remind her of her beauty.

To my mother who always finds a way to take care of those she loves,

To my mother who fought for me when the odds were stacked against her,

To my mother who was the object of slander and lies that I believed and yet she apologized anyway.

To my mother who has made mistakes.

To my mother who has apologized for her own as well as forgiven me for mine.

To my mother-you are the mother who cares.

Thank you. There will never be another quite like my adoring mother.

You are irreplaceable.

You are indestructible.

Do not forget that you are Pocahontas-you chose the harder path by having me.

I love you Mommy.

The Isolated Castle

“Let go Mike.”

“You can’t do this, Lauren!”

Defiantly, she ripped away her hand and with it her gentle tone. “I said let go, Mike. I need to go.”

“Please. Please don’t leave me again. I need an anchor, someone to hold me down, keep me stable. I need you.” Reaching out for her, the isolated island she had become, he gently caressed her wrist.

She pulled her wrist back. “You don’t need me. You need to stay the hell away from me. I’m not going to stay here waiting for the pain and loneliness that is the inevitable companion of love.”

“No, Lauren. I’m not going to leave you! You are the one pulling away from me. I keep reaching for you and I can see the flicker of desire in your eyes if for only a moment. But then the flood of memories of the past is projected onto me. I’m constantly competing with the guys who hurt you. I’m here and now and real and I love you Lauren.”

“Lies.” She whispered, but even as the words floated from her throat she stopped believing it. She leaned into him, crying softly, and he wrapped his arms around her as he sighed in relief. “I’m sorry they hurt, left, and broke you Lauren. But I’m determined not to. Let me in. Let me love you.”

And in that moment, the moat that kept out his love was destroyed, and the castle was taken over with a flood of love.

I Am A Pirate In Search Of My Prince

What I’m wanting is to find someone, and I love adventure and scavenger hunts, so I will make it a challenge by setting my standards above the expected. I want to find someone, but not just anyone. I want to love my treasure in every argument and angry face contest and silly annoyance. I want to look at you and think how beautiful you are when you hate me, and how lovely we can be when we are in perfect harmony, your melody against my soft acoustics, but also how strong and powerful we are when we yell, throwing the vocals off the charts. I will no longer depend on others and force friendships on people who will not love me forever for they can not even love me for the moment. I’m not saying it will be easy, I’m simply saying it will be worth it. Yes I’m a romantic, and yeah I’m proud of it. I’m going to keep searching the seas for the X that marks the spot because I believe when two souls are meant to be together, there is nothing that can stop them from it. I’m well aware of what love is. I will search forever for it rather than settle with regret for the rest of my life. I may mistakenly stumble along the way, but I will wait to completely fall in love until I find someone ready to catch me.

I will wait, like the dawn waits for the morning, I will wait for you.